Finding My Way

So much has changed in our family over the past few years.  Zachary went off to college in 2013, we moved far from home in 2014, and my husband just recently got the job he was promised over 15 months ago when we moved here.  It was a long painful wait getting that full-time position, but God provided in His own time. 

Because of all these changes, I've had to practically start over from the life I once knew.  I no longer live near family, no longer live near my dearest friends, and I have had to adjust to living in 'the south' after being a Yankee for nearly 50 years of my life.  The sweet-tea has helped adjust more than you could ever know, though.  ha ha!

I think the hardest part for me has been the lack of a really good close friend nearby.  You know the kind I mean...the kind that 'gets you'.  The one who could pop in at any time and you wouldn't care if they saw your house clean or a mess.  I miss having someone to drop everything for and go out for coffee.  I miss having someone to commiserate with when I'm having a bad day, and I miss being able to pick up the phone knowing that they are just a stone's throw away.  Those kind of friends are the hardest to find.  Actually you never truly find them...they find you!  It just happens.  I'm waiting for that to happen here, but it's taking a lot longer than I ever anticipated.

As for my old friends...they're still there.  They will always be there!  But...the distance has been hard, and keeping those relationships up are a lot of work.  Girls need friends they can do stuff with.  We need connections that don't include Skype, Facetime, Texts or emails.
 
I've thought long and hard about why God is having me wait for that special friend.  Perhaps so I can be more readily available for my daughter who also is longing for that kind of close friend.  Perhaps it's because God wants me to draw closer to Him...I know that's been lacking in my life.  Fortunately I've gotten involved in small group and in a Woman's Bible study at church every week.  It's been wonderful and I DO feel as if I'm a lot closer to the Lord than I've been in ages. 

Either way, the desire is still there, and I look forward to the day when either that desire goes away, or that God will bless me with a dear friend.  I know God can do anything, but we have to wait on His time, and for Him to provide.  So far He has never let me down, and I know He's not going to let me down in this area as well.  In the mean time, I'll just keep trying to find my way being a country girl living in the south.  I'll wait patiently, and I'll just trust that in His time, He will bless.