More Than You Think I Am

I've been doing a lot of thinking these days.  I don't know if it's because I turned 50 a few months back, and I'm getting older, or if it's just because of all the nonsense that's going on in the world these days.  Either way, I've been thinking.  Yeah, shocker!!

I think that's also what causes me to avoid my blog these days.  Something my Mom once told me..."If you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all."  I could write all day about people and things that tick me off.  Things that annoy me, and things that make me sad.  People are rushing around always in a hurry to do who-knows-what, and go who-knows-where.  The sense of entitlement is unbelievable these days, and it all just drives me crazy.  I don't want my blog to be filled with negativity though.  I want it to be pleasing to the Lord, and an encouragement to those who read it.

Right now I've got my music playing, headphones on and am feeling encouraged by the words I'm listening to.  Music is so soothing to the soul, isn't it?  When I need to 'get away' from it all, I crank up the music and let the words speak to me. ♪♫

The song "More Than You Think I Am" by Danny Gokey is one of my new favorite songs.  The lyrics are beautiful when you know it's Jesus speaking the words...(with my input in italics after)

You always think I'm somewhere on a mountain top
But never think behind bars
You'd be amazed the places that I'd go to be with you
Where you are
(Sometimes I wish I felt Jesus more than I do.  I know He is with me everywhere, but often my sinful nature ignores Him, and it makes me sad.  He is there waiting for me...ALL the time!)

So forget what you've heard
What you think that you know
There's a lot about me
That's never been told
(I need to spend a LOT more time in The Word.  I need to just be still and listen to Him more.  Pray more, and reflect on who He is!)

Rumor has it there's a gavel in my hand
I'm only here to condemn
But let me tell you secrets you would've never known
I think of you as my best friend
(This verse makes me sad.  I love that it says Jesus is NOT just here to condemn.  They're right. People think all He does is judge us and punish us, yet we make choices and ALL choices have consequences, whether good or bad.  He wants us to do what's right, yet despite our sins, He longs to be our friend!!) 

So much has been said
Even done in my name
But I'm showing you now
Who I really am
(Amen!)

Let me open your eyes to see the heart of me, differently
Come closer than you've ever been
Let me in like never before
Bring me every broken part
The wounds and scars of who you are
And hide in me and you will see
(I long to be close, and I pray that He will continue to reveal Himself in my life daily.  I need to go to Him when I'm broken and when I feel whole.  He is the ONLY one who can fill what is empty in my life.)

I'm more than you dreamed
More than you understand
Your days and your times
Were destined for our dance
I catch all your tears
Burn your name on my heart
Be still and trust my plan
I'm more than you think I am
(My name is burned on His heart....He loves me!  He desires to be my friend!  He adopted me into His family!  I don't deserve Him, but nonetheless, I am His and He is mine! Amen!!) 

Such a beautiful song!!  Have a listen...then take some time reflecting on the words.  Remember, He loves YOU...don't you ever forget that!!! =)